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I finally completed this painting, based on the 3D work I had done as a reference for the painting.

This artwork is my struggle and fight against Coronavirus (COVID-19). The oil painting had been completed on my 7 & 2/3 months while still recovering from the coronavirus (COVID 19). It is an expression of my feelings on how the virus felt when I was sick with it, and it was a constant battle during recovery as well having Long Covid.

I now feel mostly recovered , but still suffer from mucus buildup in the upper airways, and the narrowing of the airways, some mornings and when the air pollution levels are high. I never want to live through the nightmare of having this virus a second time.

I caught the virus in March when I had to go to the doctor for my hormone injection. A patient came in up through the elevator coughing and struggling to breath, and came towards me, as I was leaving the doctor's in the waiting area. She coughed all over me. 4-5 days later I started to get cold/flu like symptoms. The first week wasn't bad, but the second week is when all hell broke loose, struggling to breath , body pain, diarrhoea, blocked nose, ears, narrowing throat, mouth sores, sore eyes , itchy eye styes, headaches, swollen tear ducts, itchy skin, rash, and covid toes. I had the ambulance come 3 times , and gave me oxygen, but they said I wasn't severe enough to go to hospital. I developed secondary bacterial infections in my lungs , airways , throat and sinuses as soon as I started to feel recovery from the virus. Then slowly and gradually recovered more and more with a snakes and ladders like effect of minor recoveries and relapses.

The amount of denial and rejection and  lack of support of people including medical people has been unimaginable, traumatic and torturous. From getting meltdowns from trying to get help  from a doctor at the drop-in centre too being banned and blocked from people who are so fucking ignorant and stupid about this virus, believing it is just the flu... and then by a friend calling it conspiracy who blocked me while I was agreeing to the possibility of the virus being biomodified in a lab, and it leaked out of the lab due to human error and slip-ups, and spread to the wet market in Wuhan from the Lab in Wuhan, funded by Donald Trump. I have my reasons, because the chances of it being biomodified are 2:1 vs 1:1000000 to randomly selected itself via evolution to infect  and be contagious to human beings.

Secondly when analyzing all the data, to me it looks like a cut-and-paste job of the RNA sequences.

Reinforced by the fact it makes infected cells grow TENTACLES, which I felt was happening inside my body to provide the idea of the artwork, of the virus throwing its tentacles to me. Kind of like you would see in those kids "How the body works" cartoon documentaries. With the antibodies identifying as "little people" fighting the monsters (viruses and bad bacteria) .

There was even a crop circle appearing abut when I was finishing off my 3D art version which I used as a reference for the oil painting.

Now I am nearing the end of this, and still not 100% recovered, but better than I was in the previous months of recovery. I was starting to get out more, walking along the beach until some idiots believed in not wearing a mask without medical reasons, but for political reasons and the belief than their freedoms were infringed. Being too stupid to understand the virus is an extremely contagious airborne virus that does more than what the usual respiratory virus would do, that even when you survive it, your existence becomes a living hell with a dragged out prolonged recovery, which would normally take a couple of weeks to a month with a severe flu virus. Not this virus.

Never Ending Recovery

Turn around
Look at COVID you see
Itchy spots all over my skin
The mirror of bad dreams
Make boogers everywhere
Given in the blight
Written on the toilet
Is the answer to a never ending recovery
Ah

Reach the inhaler
Doctors say a fantasy
Scream a Scream
And what you see might be

Biomodified and full of secrets
Will unfold online on the cloud
And upon a spike protein
Is the answer to a never ending recovery
Ah
Recovery
Ah

Show no fear
Six plus Months to fade away
Wear a mask
Or catch a new strain

Biomodified and full of secrets
Will unfold online on the cloud
And upon a spike protein
Is the answer to a never ending recovery
Ah
Never Ending Recovery
Ah
Never Ending Recovery
Ah
Never Ending Recovery
Ah

I cant understand why they do not see the logic and reasons of wearing a mask like you would wear a seatbelt when driving a car or use safety goggles when working in a chemical laboratory.

Why are people such morons ?  I lost a lot of friendships over this stupidity, who are also failing to care and understand others... when they are suffering... Much of this bullshit had been started off by David Ike, and Q Anon.. and spread virally to my friends, acquaintances, etc , and more people are getting sick as this has been mindlessly spread about by neglecting the contagiousness  of the virus in favour for the freedom of being infected and killing the person next to you if their immunity is trashed via previous health conditions or with the virus itself if the viral load is intense.. 

With the reality of this stupidity, and the fear of catching this again to experience a second round of suffering, I am staying at home... They don't know the totalitarian  bullshit was created because of their own stupidity... failing at logic, failing at reason, failing at common sense, failing at how not blocking a sneeze/couph spreads any airborne disease, and an advantage to a virus more contagious than the fucking flu. Failing at precognition and their own instincts to take safety measures to protect ones self and others without having a policeman to order them about like idiots in Bootcamp. They brought the restrictions of freedoms on themselves because they were being ignorant and simply stupid...  They would only wake up and realise what dumbshits they have been when they find themselves sick with the virus. The source of all this idiocy is DAVID IKE and Q ANON... and some people are to stupid they are influenced by this shitesters.

I am just so frustrated with this virus and stupid people reacting over this virus.. allowing it to spread.. and remain a longer issue than it would be.. By being a fucking twat and refusing to wear PPE and refusing a vaccine to bury this virus six feet under and move on.... fuck... I hate 2020 ... a virus took more than half a year of my life... and then to recover to find a wall of dumbshits who would make become a hikikomori because of the fear of being infected a second time. Yes you can get reinfected, herd immunity concept is fucked.

Then they say... "They rather die than live in fear"... yes you would be in for a surprise when you don't die and suffer from Long Covid.. where the virus also effects your neural system , amplifying fear and anxiety on top of the feal and anxiety it causes , and the mental strain of fatigue... This is a microsocopic hell inducing piece of shit... Please Don't Be Stupid. Wear a fucking mask, wash your hands, dont throw your masks all over the ground, dispose of them correctly , wash them clean them if they are non disposable, and deal with it until medical science and technology gives you freedom, like it has always done in the past when a severe plague is ended through invention, science and technology. Thank you... please stop being an idiot and mindless falling for the idiotic anti-mask, covid-19 denial of David Ike and Q Anon...